D is for Dream

I was trying to think of a subject for this week, and I thought of all the words that start with D.

Depression is a big one these days, with the media outlets and the big business boards staring us all in the face. We have to remember that we are all strong, we all have families that need to be taken care of.

The one thing that I have learned from The Secret http://www.thesecret.com is that the more you believe you are depressed, the more depressed you will be. We all have those "demons" inside of us, telling us we're not worthy, we're fat (women mostly), we're ugly, we're no good. Mine happens to come from years of my dad (and again, sorry dad if you're reading this) telling me these things. Maybe it's because he grew up in a very strict household, or maybe it's because I'm the first girl in his family, or maybe it's because he really didn't want children.

The point I'm trying to make here is that I had to re-learn about loving myself. I had to learn that it wasn't my fault. I had to learn to forgive my parents and try to learn to become more of myself.

That's when I started to Dream. I don't mean having dreams at night, although when I was younger, I had great dreams.

What is it about Dreams? They push you, they make you have goals.

Right now, my dream is to start running my own business, have my own car, have a house, see my son grow up to be big and strong, own a jazz club one day, but mostly, just to dream.

I guess that's why I fell in love with the Renaissance Faires. They bring a dream to life. They show children of all ages of the knights, the Queens, the mud beggars, the fairies, the stories. It makes it enchanted for all.

For those of you who live in New England, I will be performing next weekend at the NH Renaissance Faire, http://www.nhrenfaire.com so if you come, ask for Jass Phinn and Bumbly Phinn.

Let's all dream together, and get through these tough times.